Relationships are not about who is willing to call you their boyfriend or girlfriend. Relationships are about who makes you happiest. Who gives a fuck if they call you their girlfriend or boyfriend. Why does it need a label? If two people are happy together and both trust each other enough to know that they will stay loyal to each other then that is all you need.

But on the other hand I guess sometimes people do need labels. Labels make people feel safe. Like getting married. Marriage is basically a label that is set in stone that comes with all these rules that help people feel safe.

eh yeah sorry this is just some stupid rant on how I think these labels are stupid. If someone makes you happy and makes you feel special like no else ever has then you stick with them. Simple as that. You dont need a label to tell people your with someone. Fuck everyone else.

maybe thats why i cant “commit” to anyone because my facebook status says “single”. its what you feel not what your profile says.

sorry this was not meant for anyone. just a random rant on stupid shit. maybe this was aimed a tiny bit towards my ex lol and possibly future connections with other people.

Why wont these feelings go away. Its almost been a year since I first met her. .

It hurts so bad that when I think of everything I feel like I’m going to be sick. It’s always times like right now, 3am all alone in bed, when I think of you the most. It’s killing me like no one could understand.

Love is such a monster. You try to hide from it in the dark under your blankets but not even that can protect you from it finding you and hurting you. It finds you wherever you are and just tares you apart, just rips you to shreds. You feel like you’re slowly dying inside. You’re left with a heart that has been shattered into pieces while all those memories flash through your head wishing you could wake up from this nightmare. Wishing that I could wake up the day before I met you…

  and just do it all again.. Meet you at a wedding; stare into your eyes and slow dance to our song. Have you be my princess. Staying up until sunrise talking.

Sitting face to face, not saying a word, just staring into each other’s eyes, and knowing at that exact moment that we’ve completely fallen for each other.

The night before you moved; those last few moments before I left your house that night have been permanently burned into my memory. The rain falling down on us as we say our goodbyes; kissing like every kiss was our last. I finally pull out of the driveway and head down the road. I got to the end of the road and said to myself “wtf am I doing?! This girl is the love of my life! I need to tell her right now! before shes gone forever. before its to late!” I turned around, pulled up in her driveway, and got out of my car. When she saw me she ran towards me and jumped into my arms crying. Then that’s when it happened. She looked into my eyes and said it. Those three words. It wasn’t just any three words, these words were the most powerful and meaningful words you could ever say to someone.

Rain and tears running down her face she then says it, “I Love You.” It felt as if time stood still for a moment. So many thoughts and feelings were rushing through my head as she said it. It was a sensory overload; I didn’t know whether to fall to my knees and cry or smile right back at her and finally tell her what I’ve wanted to say to her for so long. It was either I tell her right then and there, face one of my biggest fears by giving someone my heart, or I let her go…

  Staring back into her beautiful blue teary eyes I whispered, “I Love You Too”. So there we were standing in the rain holding each other, wiping the tears away, as we just confessed our love for one another.

This is the best I could do to pour some of my thoughts into actual words and sentences. Although it is only a small fragment of what I think about when I think of you, us, and our fairytale of a summer together. These memories will always be here. People can only dream of a summer like the one we had together. It will forever be in my heart. Even though we’ve gone our separate ways, I will always love you. There will always be a special place in my heart just for you Abby.

(yeah i know, im a fucking lameass for quoting lyrics from an 80’s love song. haha but fuck off, because it hurts. For those of you that don’t know what its like, one day you will know this feeling too. Or maybe you will be one of the lucky ones that fall in love and never lets go of one another.)

“Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn’t really know, doesn’t really know”

#love #heartbreak #hurt #alone

you were perfect in my eyes. i still think of you all the time. but when i do think of you it’s always the cute moments. I still wonder if you ever think of me. I still look up at the night sky and stare at the moon and wonder if at that exact moment you’re also staring at it. 

but then after im done thinking about the cute things I start thinking of the bad. that warm fuzzy feeling I get when I think of you vanishes and then after thinking of what you’ve done to me I feel broken and disgusted.

You will prob not care enough to ever come to my page again but then again i know you and i know that a small part of you will force yourself to come here and read this.